So my friend and i went to the gym, that's just around the corner from my place, at 5pm today.I was pretty restless the whole day,craving for exercise.You know how i like exhausting myself.And when i do go,i always go up to a similar kind of studio on the 2nd level of the gym.It's not really a studio,kinda similar.I'll try to get a picture of the place.I wont bother describing.I'm crap at that.
Anyway,i try to do handstands,practice my cartwheels and my L-kick and sometimes,if there's no one around,i practice dance steps.
As i said,we went to the gym today and as it turns out,people are fond going to the gym at night too.There were quite a number of people there. Men.
And being in a girls' school for a year and a half now(almost),i seem to have forgotten how to move infront of the male species.I was so self conscious,i couldnt look at the other gym goers right in the face for more than a few seconds.It's like i was stuck in this tight box wherein i cant move cause there's no space even for a tiny movement.That's how i moved there.Haha.Get the picture?
My friend and i were a right laugh after a station we'd go like,
'So what now?'
'What do you want to do?'
'What do YOU want to do?'
'Let's go up to the 2nd floor.'
'But there are many people there.'
'So what now?'
Somewhere along those lines.LOL!We sound like girls.Well,we are girls but girls who are in some way bimbotic.Hehe...We were just talking in circles.
The older men were nice though,they smile back at me.But the younger ones are the ones who avoid looking at you.Or they do look at you but when you look back,they turn away.What's wrong with these people?Or with me for that matter....
I practically embarrased myself when i went to the second floor of the gym.There's this guy i met there who helped me out once with my handstand, being the friendly girl that i am, i actually waved 'hi' to him.I did a double take and waved 'hi' to him.
I have no idea whether he remembered me but he waved back anyway.
ARGHHHHHH!
I dont know why i felt so embarrased.And i still do.
Stupid me,i know why.Cause i'm attracted to the dude. For the whole time i was there,i tried avoiding him.Like when he went down,i went up,or when we were both on the same ground level,i would look anywhere but at him.He kinda smiled at me when he went down but i ignored it.Haha.I know what must have been going through his mind - 'that girl is wierd,she waves but then ignores me suddenly'.I'm not saying he noticed me
that way but my friend noticed so that kinda alarmed me.
He'd be really dumb if he couldnt tell by now that i liked him.
Or i'm the really dumb one, who would actually think that he would notice me like that.
I'd go with the latter.And as usual,i'm over reacting,reading too much into things.
A friend told me once that if u sit beside a person or are near a person, and you cant seem to open ur mouth or suddenly feel a certain unease,that there's is an attraction between the 2(it can also be a one sided attraction). So yea,that's how i felt just now.Though last week i had no problems talking to him.
Sigh.....
I'm never going to the gym at the same time as him.From now on,i'm going at 2pm.Those taking care of the gym said that not much people are around at that time.I really hope i dont see him again.Just until i can get over my tiny crush on him.I swear,i wont be able to move or exercise much in the gym.
Gosh,i sound like a preschooler.Haha.I may be 18 but i's still an 8 year old at heart.
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