New Year resolution:

(It doesnt have to be exactly on new years to create new year resolutions :D)

1) Seek God more. Rely on Him more :)

2) Learn to control my temper!

3) Be less careless. STOP losing things!

4) Be less forgetful. I have a planner. MAKE USE OF IT!

5) STOP liking people who are playful!!! (I don't think you'd want to know XD)


We'll be having our intersection basketball game on Monday. I'm one of the main 'representatives' (main stay) of our class. I'm nervous. I've been prayed to get a spot in the mainstays. We played a game today and i really dont know if i can do it.

We have better players. I may be a good rebounder but there are others who can rebound and, actually SHOOT! I pray that God plays with our team on Monday. May His presence descend upon us as we play and may we actually WIN!Haha.

LORD, LET US WIN :D

'Things that come out of the mouth come from the heart, and these make a man unclean'.
Matthew 15:18


The reason why i have internal struggles is because i have been 'declaring' to people what my heart wants. Even when i know it's wrong.

Now, i declare otherwise.

Lord, help me keep my word so as not to nulify my declaration.

Hehe.

I just make things harder for myself.Hehe...

I have so much to do.I just hope i can remember it all. There's something wrong with my memory. Been sleeping a wee bit late for the past 2 weeks (or days, or so...) and it's messing with my brain. Dance took the brunt of it. I can barely memorize dance steps now.And i've got a low stamina.

LORD!Please restore in me whatever was lost.

Just came to a realization yesterday that i can't do anything without God. Nothing i do will be near as good as what Lord does with me. Everything i do is the product of God. Even when i don't ddeserve it, He still gives it to me.

The least i can do to return His magnanimous love, is to turn back on my own desires.


:):):)

So not in the mood right now...

The weather here compliments my mood. Arghhh!

IT'S SO HOT!!!

I feel like i'm living under the marshall law. I can't move and breathe while under the scrunity of others.Especially at home.

Lord, i'm begging for your help....

Please help me keep my cool and my sanity. I'm just holding my tongue here.

I had an epiphany today.

My mom,bro,cousin and I were attending a night mass, right after my churchwork. A lot of people attended mass at that time so there were several people standing due to the lack of seats. My family got a chair each, i was the only one left standing.

There was this guy who was sitting on a monoblock chair near us. He gave me his chair. He stood up, called me 'miss' to catch my attention and passed me his chair, and he went off.

Looking back now, the guy was actually pretty cute.He was fair and had a simple yet nice style in clothes.He looked kinda chinese with his small eyes (chinese-look alikes are the hot favs here in my country.Go figure!).

And i realized that what if i was still the same old person who didn't seek God, I would be all excited and estatic about how a dude, whom i don't know, and a cute one at that, offered me a chair. I would be going over every single word and action of his, fantasizing about having an admirer and hoping that i would see him again one day, and i'd pray, that something will happen.

For as long as i could remember, i have always prayed to God to let me finally have a boyfriend and experience being in a real relationship.

However, at that time all that went through my mind was- 'Wow! God really provides. He gave me a chair.'

I was just amazed at his power and was also touched me his help. I know it isn't that big of a deal,getting a chair. But i've learned to appreciate everything and anything.

God's word to me the other day was to smile,to be happy and to be appreciative of even the most simplest of things. I was moody for the whole of that week until i opened my daily devotional.

The next day, i tried applying what i learned and guess what? It was so much easier for me to be more cheerful. it didn't take as much effort to smile, not just the normal sarcastic smile. It didn't take much energy to smile or be cheerful, as i was normally.

And it was a whole lot easier, on my part, to smile at strangers, even. I don't know why but the people i met along the corridors, who aren't my friends, were just smiling at me. Usually,i would feel akward smiling at others whom i didn't even know and was afraid that they would think i was loony or something to that effect.

But that day, it felt so natural. Like i should have been doing that since i first came here or something.

Haha...... do i even make sense?Do i still have ur attention or have i lost it in between my ramblings.

Just wanted to share the simple miracles that God bestowed upon me :)


Anyway, off to bed. Gotta be in school early tomorrow. Dry run for elections. Will explain another day :)

GOD BLESS PEEPS!
Lose everything but your faith and hope :)

Now,i understand why God never answered that prayer of mine, even until now.